As you all know it’s been a difficult month or so (to say the least) since we lost Danny and Bob. The emotional toll it has taken on the Neary and Sweeny families, our collective Fire Department family, my brother (& sister) firefighters and paramedics, me personally, as well as my family has been enormous. Even though this tragedy is gradually receding from the headlines, it continues to be an everyday reality for those of us close to it. Add to that an administration that continues to play politics with the lives and safety of our members and the citizens of this city at every turn and you have a department left crushed and bewildered. I have finally begun to feel the effects both physically and mentally. It’s not fair to those who read First In for me to keep writing when my head’s not in it.
While attending to the needs of the Neary family during their time of unimaginable sorrow, I experienced some serious family and personal issues of my own, not the least of which was my father’s (successful) cancer surgery. All this stress has combined to knock me down, but I am by no means out. I just need to take some time to decompress. My family comes first in my life, so that’s where I am starting. Work is second and I will get back there when I am ready. As for the blog, it has always been an outlet, a way for me to vent on some of the things that tend to build up inside. However, for the time being I am putting it on the back burner. It’s not that I don’t feel like writing; I do. But right now I don’t need the self-induced stress of writing posts for public consumption. There is so much going on around me it’s hard to keep events straight.
So I’m taking a break from First In. Rest assured it won’t be permanent. I have started work on my master’s degree and until I get into the swing of things, that will be my focus outside the family and work. It will leave precious little time for blogging. But these things have a way of working out. Hopefully in a short time I’ll be back at it. In the meantime my good buddy Wyatt will throw up an occasional post (as will I). It just won’t be a regular occurrence. I’ll let you know when I feel like I can get back at it. Until then, keep checking in. Of course, if something big hits the department or nationally I’ll make the effort. Thanks for your patience and continued support for First In. It’s much appreciated.